A Note To Self

Ugh! It was awful this morning!! Every single time I ran, I had these horrible cramps and my breakfast was right there the whole time. I did wait an hour before heading outside, but I guess the waffle + greek yogurt + nut butter combo is just too much for a pre-run breakfast. Now I know!

I’m trying desperately not to get discouraged by my inability to run since John died. I feel like I have lost every ounce of endurance I ever had and physically, I just cannot do it yet! This morning, despite the cramping issue, I did manage 3.25 miles but I ended up having to walk most of the time and finishing in an embarrassingly horrific time of 40 minutes!!! 40 minutes! Good news is that my shins felt fine and I think I could be better if I ran on an empty stomach….I’m going to try again this weekend but right now am just feeling pretty down on myself about it.

After my run I was in a rush to shower and get out the door because I had an annual doctor’s appointment check up this morning. On my way out, I still was feeling pretty bloated and gaggy, but I grabbed one of the dried fruit bars that Chrissy sent me yesterday to munch along the way!

I love you, Chrissy!!!! This bar was AMAZING! I loved how thick it was, most of all. I really, really, really wish we had a Trader Joe’s around here because this was the best fruit bar I’ve ever had.

I got to the doctor’s office and had to sit in the waiting room for 50 minutes! Don’t you hate that??! Hunger hit me like a punch in the stomach all of the sudden and I reached for the other half of my delicious “grawnola bar” from One Lucky Duck-–

I can’t even express how awesome these bars are. SO chewy and dense with a chewy sweetness from the dried blueberries. I love ‘em!

My appointment went fine but I was shocked to see that I had lost 7 lbs since the last time I had weighed myself. Of course we all know how much I EAT so that’s not the problem—I think its just the stress of my brother dying and everything in between. Weird.

Needless to say, I was starving my pants off when I got home so I threw together a simple and delicious wrap for lunch:

I used 2 spoonfuls Sabra’s garlic hummus (aka crack), 2 slices boar’s head turkey, 1 ounce fresh goat cheese and a ton of spinach, all on an Ezekiel sprouted wrap. It was divinely messy!

I’m here writing for the rest of the afternoon…that is, until 3:30 when I go with my parents to grief counseling. Fun times I tell you. Fun times. I wanted to go to a yoga class this evening but I don’t think my wrist would like that very much (all those side balances and chatarungas) so I’m just going to lay low.

Enjoy your day!

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