Definitely Not in Kansas Anymore; feb 24

Well, that cute/sad attempt at a joke/allusion should give you guys a hint that i’m a bit chipper today! Thank Goodness, because yesterday was absolutely dreadful. I really just want to let you ladies (and gents) know how much I appreciate all your kind words and support. I really love this whole community and I am so glad Eliza got me into blogging–it’s been so helpful in my recovery!

Today didn’t stray far from the standard, besides the fact that the basement has gotten worse and I haven’t been able to go into my room. My OCD is going wild sitting up in the living room and doing all my work surrounded by bits and pieces of our couch from downstairs, half of my brothers drumset, all of my clothing/shoes, and a gazillion records (literally) that my brother HAD to take out of the attack for no reason–we don’t even have a record player! Needless to say, I’m a bit stressed but I’m doing the best I can to alleviate it.

New Living Quarters; if you even try to tell me that this wouldn't stress you out, I won't believe you. So don't try

Ever seen the full house episode where Michelle says, "There's a car in the kitchen!" and no one believes her? Well, my entire house is in my kitchen. Look at that sofa on the dining room table! WTF. Note: stack of records next to drums is about 5% of the collection sitting at my feet right now.

The Damage; my poor, poor room!

I talked to my beautiful friend H today from treatment! She is so amazing and has really been struggling lately which makes me so sad. I wish I could help her but right now, it seems the only thing I can do is give her my support and I have done that to the utmost of my ability.

So, big shock here–are you ready? Despite my mom’s hysterics over the basement, she STILL had time today to comment on what I’ve been eating. But the comment has changed! Now, instead of eating too many apples or too much nut butter, i’m eating too much oatmeal/cereal too!!! Jesus, I can’t please this woman. I’m not even going to acknowledge the comment she made today because she’s being ridiculous. Its just shocking to me how she can be threatening suicide at the same time as complaining about how much oatmeal i’m eating…? I really need to get out of this house. Soon.

I posted a few new recipes on my new Recipe page! I’ve been trying to expand my blog a bit so check out the tabs on the top of my page :]

The Look Today; worn with a black cardigan & chestnut uggs.

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I definitely felt some major body image issues coming on today. I felt my shirt was too tight, my “boobs” were too big, my legs were gigantic, and my arms were just unacceptable. Hmpf. Stupid ED.

Some Eats from Today;

A Handful of these AMAZING Chocolate Covered Coffee Beans from Costa Rica!

not really an eat, but don’t you just LOVE green tea? <3

I was actually really proud of myself for making this snack tonight, so I was upset that my mom decided to butt in. Cream of Wheat Healthy Grain with a banana mixed in and “Cream Cheese Frosting”

That’s right, NO APPLE. But, looks as if that didn’t make a difference anyways because she found something ELSE to complain about. The woman never stops, I’m serious. Our house is falling apart and she still can’t refrain from complaining about my food choices. Admit it, guys. That’s a bit absurd.

I’m off to hit the sack in my mom’s room! Since I no longer have one :[ It’s actually making me so sad but I’m trying not to let it get to me…ugh. I may sleep at my cousin’s tomorrow because I must must must get out of this poisonous environment for a bit…

LOVE,