Idle hands?

Oh August.  It?s interesting how so much work screeches to a halt during the months of August and December.  My calendar goes from booked solid to days with absolutely nothing on it.  Unfortunately, the quiet days can sometimes be harder than the busy ones.  I wish this wasn?t so, but on the quieter days, when I have time to hear myself to think, I often think about food.

I hate to admit that because I feel like it is a sign of weakness, I * should * spend my spare time thinking about work, photography or blogging.  Not about crap food(let?s be honest, I don?t dream about boiled chicken breasts-I think about chocolate, chips and other bad for you junk food).  More time than I care to admit is spent thinking about what I can eat next.  And when something stressful comes up like it did on Wednesday, my brain doesn?t start troubleshooting or problem solving.  No, it goes straight to food.  Specifically, I think ?where can I get some chocolate to make this feeling go away?.

This is embarrassing to me.  I?m a 30 year old professional woman and my mind is all too often filled with thoughts about food.  I waste so much time that could be spent on productive pursuits. 

When I lost 60 pounds a few years ago I never got over this.  I was low-carbing so I would comfort myself with low carb crap food.  I actually have no idea how to get past this.  I am realizing that I need to figure something out because I will never lose this weight if I?m still relying on emotional eating.

Do you have this issue?  How do you stop focusing on food as comfort?