Sunday breakfast (6.14.09) oat bran gone wild?

Good morning lovies, happy Sunday! This morning for breekie i had a ridiculously amazing bowl of creamy oat bran, that Maya came up with yesterday! "cashew cookie, coconut cream pie, banana bread, cherry pie Lara bar oat bran?" okay this was craziness in a bowl, Maya thought it would be fun/funny to channel multiple Lara bar flavors into a bowl of oats. and boy was this AMAZING, seriously, so good. okay the bowl consisted of oat bran cooked in light vanilla soy milk, with a caramelized banana mixed in, then topped with fresh cherries and dates, and then 2 tbsp toasted coconut that i toasted on the stove top until it turned golden, then topped with 1 tbsp cashew butter! :-D wow this was crazy good, the oat bran was especially thick and creamy, i love when it is like that, and all the various toppings was like a party in my mouth. ha.

Today it is dreary and rainy-ish in NY, its been like this now for like a week, ugh, i want the sun to come out. well hopefully today i will go somewhere, yesterday was quite boring just stayed home the whole day and went on a little walk to the co-op, and my dad came over to give maya and i our new laptops! which was pretty exciting, ive been wanted my own laptop forever! and finally i got one :)

I have been feeling okay lately in terms of body image etc, my weight has been pretty much a mantaince for the past 3 weeks since i started eating 2000 cals, i am happy with this, i always thought i was abnormal and only could mantain my weight on like 1500-1600, but i guess my metabolism is faster than i though it was, and now that i am at a healthier weight my weight trend is more stable because it isnt holding on to calories because i am so malnourished.
but it is still very difficult for me to accept my body the way it is, i am hoping pilates makes my limbs longer, i am just so self consious of my arms, and i get so upset thinking about how last summer my arms were like little baby stick arms, and i would wear tank tops all the time, i guess i just have a lot to get used to. ive been at about 17.5 ish bmi now for a month or so and i would think i would have already gotten used to my new body, but its still so hard to look at my body without feeling the thoughts of, "i would looks so much better x amount less" but i know i am not fat at all, and i am still small, and a bit underweight, but just in comparisson to what i am used to it is just so different. but as time progresses i know i will learn to love my body and accept myself the way i am.