Back in love

Before loving the others we must be able to love ourselves.

I don?t know who said this, because I am sure that such a deep truth must have come out in human history quite a few times.

I am loving myself and my life more and more these days. Something has changed, something that can?t be touched or described or interpreted; me for one I am not sure of what happened. The only secure thing is that it isn?t the effect of drugs, except my daily cup of coffee I am almost vices free (sigh).

It just happened this week, last Tuesday to be precise; after a dreadful weekend of self commiseration and depression I sort of started seeing the sun shining again. In total truth I believe that this ?miracle? has a cause but one step after the other.



You might have noticed that I have gone quiet for quite some time after October last year. I fell in one of those me-myself-and-I periods, when you feel that something is maturing inside you, something that needs most of the available energies, something that is still shrouded in total darkness; but you know that when it comes out, it is like a beautiful flower bud ready to bloom.

I have decided what I want to do with my life; this is my flower bud.

Hard work on myself, loneliness and countless psychotherapy sessions with my friends and family members have definitely helped me getting my head around my needs, wishes and duties.

I am opening a gastronomical consulting business; legal and concrete details are still unsure hence the flower bud. I am working on it, working on my CV, on a portfolio, on marketing myself and ultimately on a place to live. Germany is growing small to me and how the things are moving around here they do not inspire me any hope for the future so, my aussie friends, I will be joining you soon.

To celebrate this new reconciliation with myself and life I want to celebrate my St Valentine with all of you, my friends, who have supported me through these days.

This is a little dessert that I came up with just the day when the sun started shining again and I hope you will enjoy it as much as I did.

Here I give you my:



St. Valentine?s Ricotta mousse tower with sweet-&-nutty tomato jam and a milk-chocolate ganache.







Ingredients (makes 4 servings):

Tomato jam:



200g fresh tomatoes, pureed with some water but not strained
1/2 tbsp sugar
1tbsp butter
1tbsp fresh orange juice
Red food coloring (optional).


Ricotta mousse:



1 XL egg yolk
3-4 tbsp sugar
1 1/2 tbsp Chinese rice wine
150g fresh ricotta cheese, at room temperature
1 sheet of gelatin, soaked in cold water
1tbsp cream.


Chocolate ganache:



40g milk chocolate, chopped (Valrhona?s Jivara or another kind with around 40% cocoa mass)
4tsp cream.


To serve:



16 butter cookies
Pink peppercorns (optional)
Gold leaf (optional)
Dried cherries (optional).






Method:

Let?s start with the tomato jam.

In a small saucepan mix the fresh tomato puree with the sugar and let it reduce over medium fire stirring often. At the end you should have a quite thick product without any water separating from it. Pass the jam through a fine mesh sieve and reserve to cool down.

While the tomato puree is cooking, combine the egg yolk with 2 tbsp of sugar and whip it in a bowl over some simmering water. You will need to make a sabayon to lighten up the ricotta cheese.

While the egg yolk gets whipped and heated, add the Chinese rice wine to it and continue cooking until the sabayon will feel warm to the touch and will be thick enough for you to be able to see the bottom of the bowl while whipping it. Let the sabayon reach room temperature before mixing it with the ricotta cheese.

In a small bowl whip lightly the ricotta cheese with 1-2 tbsp of sugar or to taste and fold in the sabayon little at a time. In a small saucepan warm up the cream with the gelatin sheet so to melt the latter but do not let the cream come anywhere close to a boil or you may damage the gelatin. Fold the cream-gelatin mixture into the ricotta mousse, cover the bowl with some aluminum paper or similar and refrigerate for few hours or until set.

Let?s finish the tomato jam now. Put the butter in a small saucepan and let it come to the hazelnut stage. Out of the fire, add the orange juice to it and cook again the butter till all the moisture will be evaporated. Whisk the resulting flavored hazelnut butter into the tomato jam and, eventually, color it with some red food coloring.

When you are ready to assemble, lightly whisk the ricotta mousse using a spoon; place a small dollop of it at the center of each page and place on them one butter cookie pressing it down so to hold it in place. Start building the towers spooning some ricotta mousse over the butter cookie and then placing a new one on top gently pressing it down. To have a more attractive look, try to rotate the cookies when you place them on top of the mousse so they won?t be all parallel to each other (this way the structure is also more stable). Here and there, in the ricotta mousse layer, you can place a few little pieces of dried cherries if you want.

Leave the towers for a few hours or overnight in the fridge so the cookies get soft and easy to cut through

Just before serving, melt the milk chocolate with the cream by placing them in a small bowl and then placing the latter into some hot water. Stir the ganache till well combined and drizzle it over the towers.

Using a squeeze bottle or little piping bag make some decoration on the plate using the tomato jam; garnish the top of the tower with few pink peppercorns and gold flakes and serve.