Pumpkin spice "ice cream"...to end this long day....

Good evening lovies, or good morning or afternoon depending on where you all are living ;P

Well today was okay, it was actually good i guess, struggling a bit with body image and struggled with feeling unmotivated to do this, but i stayed positive like i promised :)....the doctors appointment this morning went well, i went after Maya so i had the privilege that my mom and Maya told her after she made a comment to Maya, not to say good job, or your looking better etc...so that was good for me.... i love the nurse at the office though, she is so sweet, she took my blood pressure and heart rate and temperature, weighed me etc...and my blood pressure was 84 over 58 :/idk if thats bad, i am so stupid about things like that, but she said it was like that of a 4 year old child's...any ways that just gives me more of a reason to find it very necessary to up that sodium intake to a good, healthy, normal amount.

well after lunch, mom and i spent some time together for an hour or so...we went to this town by the hudson river(where Maya went yesterday) love this little town, my dad used to live there when i was like 12, its so charming! well i bought her some goodies and gifts :)...a plum purple hat, a oskri fig bar, rice mellowfluff hehe! a 18 rabbits cherry chocolate bar, and a little cute card, ohh and a one of those balls of lindt white chocolate, got me one too :) (i know she loves those, so do i, but for some reason both of us are a bit fearful of white chocolate, so i thought i'd get it for a challenge to have soon!) i remember when i had an ED and maya didnt yet, back when we were like 14, she went to sleep away camp and her b-day was during her stay there, and they asked my brother adam what Maya would want, and he said white chocolate ice cream cake! :D she was so cute, now i think he'd say carrot cake lol ;)

As i wrote about in this mornings post, i was feeling bad about pics of me that were triggering or upsetting to my friends and just people i know...my friend R just wrote me a message such a short message saying, "are you sure you arent going IP, i really think you need to..." i wrote some long message back, telling that i am fine and am making progress at home, despite what i look like, i have gained X and will be gaining more...and i WILL get better...and it really upset me to see that my room mate from when i was in IP this past January, who i was pretty close with un-friended me on FB!! :( that made me so so sad...i think she is struggling, and i was prob, well i am assuming i was upsetting... she commented on that photo last night so i fugured....:/

a bit after dinner M and I had our snack, to reach our goal, omg this was so good...as Maya and i tried to come up with a snack, i brilliantly ;) came up with this: pumpkin spice "ice cream" so freakin good!
all we did was blend 1/2 a frozen banana 1/4 cup trader joes plain fat free frozen yogurt, pumpkin pie spice, a spoonful of pumpkin puree(like 1-2 tbsp) and a tsp of pumpkin butter, and 1 tsp of creamy peanut butter, topped it off with 2 tbsp of trader joes pumpkin spice granola! this was like the best ever! definitely making this again tomorrow :)!...bad pic....took the photo in my room with my cell phone lol after like 1/2 way through eating it...Maya had her camera, i am possibly/maybe, pinkies crossed getting a little camera of my own soon! :)

xo
Eliza